Tag Archive: conversion

Apr 17 2015

On peace with us.

We are uncertain. Much of the time we are afraid. We endure pain and grieve, mourning for lives unlived. We huddle in rooms that feel safe with our loved ones, and there we thread through our fingers the most precious of our memories and the most fragile of questions. Sometimes we are desperate, sometimes hopeful. …

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Jun 12 2014

On soil and thistle.

The author of the epistle to the Hebrews was possibly but not probably St. Paul. It was probably but not definitely one of Paul’s friends and disciples in Italy – perhaps, Priscilla or Barnabas or Apollos or even Timothy himself – but, in any case, though the name of the author is most likely lost, …

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Jan 08 2014

On leaving the cradle.

We celebrated the feast of the Epiphany this Sunday. One of the most colorful tales in all the Gospels – really, a fairy tale, the most exciting Nativity narrative. Who doesn’t like a fairy tale? In the Gospel of Matthew, three magi – variously translated as kings and wise men from the Orient – come …

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Sep 02 2013

On bearable pain.

This essay is not entirely about pain. It is actually, at least to me, primarily on the nature of time. But I have looked over my own writing and realized that I don’t write about pain nearly as much as I would have thought I would. I know why. I also know why I was …

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Mar 19 2013

On seeing and believing.

In the Gospel of John, there is a man among the disciples of Jesus who is absent on Easter Sunday, when the risen Lord appears to them to cause the first furor and relief and the awakening of faith. Thomas Didymus is told of this but refuses to believe until he has hard and undeniable …

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Sep 30 2012

On being hope.

  I am the blind who’s come to see. I am the lame who stood and walked. I am the broken-hearted That He was sent to heal. I am the mute who sings His praise, And it is I who in my grief Was blessed and am now comforted.   I am a rare occurrence …

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May 23 2012

On how I got here. Part II.

One day the door groaned and broke, and, almost blind and stupid from decades of banging, I fell through it into a new world—a vantage point flooded with light and warmth, from which I could see doors and paths around the doors, from which I could see warm hands and the Source of every hand, from which I could see the breathtaking landscape and the end-goal of every path. This poem is not my liturgy because even when “God” was not part of my spiritual vocabulary, that vocabulary was not limited to “head,” “door,” and “hand.” It included also “why.” The analysis of the relationships among heads, doors, and hands. The unwillingness to stop at acceptance. The refusal to go on banging on doors, hoping only for a stroking hand, without a grander reason, a structure, a purpose, an ordered universe. And so I screamed and prophesied and broke the door and only then knew, why.

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May 09 2012

On turning 40 and my conversion

…if I were to refer to anything that’s happened to me as a “conversion experience,” it would not be to the day of my Church baptism. It would be to that moment which stilled the echoing mayhem of despair in my mind and filled and steeped my whole being in the warm light of Love personified. It would be to the day I understood enough to understand that I would never understand.

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